It Has Begun…

I’ve begun to pack up my room. Not completely though since I haven’t bought moving boxes. But the process has started. To be honest, I don’t need to start packing until like mid July but I figured I should do it now because classes start on the 29th of this month.

My friend Rain moves into the house she’s renting with her boyfriend the weekend of the forth of July. They are renting a two bedroom/bath and will have graciously let me stay those few days I’ll be “homeless”. My lease at my current place is up July 31st and I’m not set to move into my new apartment until after August 8th. So thank God my friends are letting me put my stuff in their house and sleep there until I can move.

I’m really excited for Rain though, this is a big step for her and her boyfriend. It’s another adventure and I’m excited to see them journey on it. I also can’t wait to help Rain pack, move and decorate her new place. She’s going to have so much fun.

Great thing, we won’t be that far from each other. Of course Rain drives so she can always come see me but now I’ll even be able to ride my bike to her.

So packing has started, it’s helped me become more motivated in everything I’m doing. Warning in advanced, I might not be able to post because of lack of internet etc unless I’m on campus. This will be temporary until I get internet at my new place. But rest assured, I’ll be taking photos of EVERYTHING so that I can have great posts.

Until next time.


I’m In A Creative Slump…

I said I was going to write yesterday and I didn’t. I’ve officially missed an entire day of my “write every day no matter what” goal. I’m not too upset though, I’ve come to recognize that things happen and sometimes you mess up. It’s about how you pick yourself and keep going. Right now though, I’m trying to get into the process of picking myself back up.

I’ve realized today that I’m in a creative slump. I think it came on suddenly but I’ve lost the drive to write scripts, write blog posts, film the things that are already written etc. I have a feeling it’s because of where my life is at the moment. I’m moving next month and the anticipation to be in an apartment alone is killing me. It’s not that I’m scared to live alone, I just want to already be alone. I currently live with my sister and while it’s been nice, it’s been hard to live with her when we’re two different people. I just want to hurry up and move and to hurry up and have my summer classes start. I’m growing quite impatient and when I’m impatient, for some reason I don’t want to do the things that I love. It’s weird, no clue why, it just happens.

I find that when I’m in class, I become more creative in my non classroom activities. Probably because I spend days learning the same subject that my mind is fulfilled in the monotonous department and then the creative side yearns for it’s turn. Does that make sense? I think I’m also in this slump because I have no room in my current place to film the things I want to film nor do I have the quite space to write. My sister has dogs and sometimes they are just too much and it makes it hard to use the rest of the house to film. You can only be so creative locked in your room. With my new place, I’ll have the whole house to use to film. And the quietness to really dig deep in my writing.

Aside from physical problems that are blocking my creativity, there are mental ones. The biggest thing aside from me creating content is that I’m doubting myself as an actor. Acting is my first and foremost love, it’s something I pride myself in. It’s something that I plan on working hard at for a future in. But there are those days (as many actors get) where I feel like my work is shit. That my skills are shit. I know they’re not, but sometimes, just sometimes I think they are. As of late, I feel like what I’m putting out on my channel isn’t good enough. I’ve been constantly doubting my work, comparing myself to other YouTubers, and doubting what my future will hold. I know the simple solution to all of this. I know my work is the best that I am right now, and if I don’t like it, I need to work harder to improve my crafts. I know that comparing myself to other YouTubers does nothing because they’re not doing what I am doing. And even if they were, it doesn’t matter. We are not the same people. I know to take things one step at a time. I can’t control the future but I can control what I am doing today at this very moment. I know all of things, but sometimes it’s harder to do them.

So right now yes, I’m in a creative slump. I don’t have the energy for a lot of things at the moment but I know I will. The first step is to recognize you are in a slump and then slowly crawl out of it. That is what I’m doing, or at least trying. Every day it’s getting better, that’s all I can ask for. I’m working on changing the physical and mental and for that I should feel proud. I also need to remember that if I don’t like what I’m doing or where I am, then I need to work 10x’s harder to change it. I’m in control if I win or lose.

One thing I need to keep in mind is that, this happens when you’re an artist. It’s completely normal. What isn’t normal is letting these feelings stay, and I don’t plan on letting them. THEY AIN’T PAYING MY RENT!


Worth The Wait…

When starting this blog, I said to myself that I would write every day. I’ve come to realize that it’s incredibly hard to do since I’d like to have a quality post each time. But things come up and I’m on my way out for an engagement with friends. Here’s my post for today. I feel pretty bad that it isn’t much, but I plan on tomorrow’s post to be detailed on what I’ve been doing. I’m very happy about how…hmm what is the best way to describe this…how adventurous I’ve been. I think it’ll be worth the wait. Write you all tomorrow.

Who’s you all? I’m pretty sure I’m the only one who really reads my posts.



I’m completely tired. I got little to no sleep. I stayed up last night watching season 3 of “Orange Is The New Black”. Surprisingly enough, I didn’t finish the season. I guess my body had some self control when I passed out. Speaking of out, I’m going out tonight with friends. I may regret being up so late…I don’t know. It was kind of worth it.



Sometimes you make bad decisions for good reasons.


There’s Only Us, There’s Only This…

I woke up today at 7AM, I went to bed today at 3AM. So right now I’m working on about 4 hours of sleep. I have no idea why I woke up so early, but it seems my body just wanted to great the day.

I went to bed so late because I helped my friend Shelby pack up her place before she moves to her new place. We were already hanging out yesterday so I offered to help since she was so kind to make me dinner! I met Shelby this year and man am I happy we’re friends. She’s so kind and we always have fun when we hang out.

Last night was no exception. After we ate, talked about the finale of “RuPaul’s Drag Race”, and I watched her do her online quiz for her politics class, we began to pack up her place. Of course, you can’t pack a house up without blasting “RENT”, it’s just not heard of.There’s only us, there’s only this. Forget, regret, or life is yours to miss…okay sorry. This is my second theatre reference to another amazing musical! I CAN’T HELP IT! But if you’d like more, thankfully Snapchat captured this fun (Btw, my snapchat is xasianitandreax).

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screenshot from my snapchat: xasianitandreax

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It took us until 3AM to pack up her place! Aside from her bedroom, because she wanted to do that herself, we got the place ready to be moved. Of course her family is going to move her things because Shelby is actually going to be flying to NYC & Dallas until what I assume, August. Shelby is a part of the production and filming of a new movie that will be coming out called “Hurricane Bianca”. If you’ve watch last season of “RuPaul’s Drag Race”, you’ll know of previous winner Bianca Del Rio. And if you don’t know who she is, what the hell are you doing? This is her movie and Shelby has this amazing opportunity to work with Bianca and everyone on it.

If you want to know more here’s the link: Hurricane Bianca

I’m so excited for Shelby and I can’t wait for her to come home and tell me all about her experience! I’m also happy I got to help her out because packing is stressful for everyone…but not me. I actually really love packing and moving. What’s wrong with me?